Saturday, February 15, 2014

With the Docent

 

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How to Look at a Silver Doctor
   Trout flies have fascinated me from the beginning, and salmon flies, with their complexity and beauty, filled me with wonder from the first.
   In order to have flies with which to fish during the good old days of the Great Depression, I had to teach myself to tie them. Long ago, before this great age of fly-tying today. Only after years of tying the simpler trout fly, did I get up the courage to try a full-dressed, Victorian, Imperial salmon fly. The results may have been good enough to fish with but far from good enough to show off to anybody.
    And so, excusing myself from the considerable expense of the rare and exotic materials for the salmon dressings, not to mention the skill and plain hard work to tie them decently, I gave up the idea.
   And now, here we are today: many are the brilliant young tiers who tie them well, some nearer and nearer to perfection, along the asymptotic curve that arrives infinitely closer and closer to perfection, but can never, ever, quite make it.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Wagner and an Old Man


                  
              
                  With apologies to Professor Bruns

   What’s the good, what’s the sense, of having a blog? What excuse is there for being a blogger, of presuming to write something that someone might read, if it is not to declare, before it is too late the status of my Wagnerism.  It follows herewith.
  
   First, I must explain that I fell in the thrall of Rickard Wagner early in high school. In those years, Wagner’s music and the local trout kept me singing inside. Those were the years when Lauritz Melchoir and Kirsten Flagstad owned the roles of Siegfried and Brünnhilde in the titanic Ring cycle of four operas.  I even heard the insufferable and sublime Melchoir live in concert in Denver, which is akin to boasting of having heard Caruso.
   Well before that however, one Saturday afternoon, with my church-musician aunt and uncle visiting from Texas, I lay on the living room floor listening to a live broadcast of Tristan und Isolde from the Met. I must have appeared to my musically conventional uncle quite unzipped by the rapture of the music.  I could not have understood at that time its burning eroticism, but I must have been sensing something of it: its musically overt sex had to have caught me.
    Uncle Pete remarked, as he passed by and saw me there in my innocent’s ecstasy, that when I grew up I would not like that kind of music. I thought about that for a moment and decided then and there that if that is what it meant to “grow up”, well, I simply would not do it. And so I have not-- which for some readers, this essay may only go to prove.
  When it came time to go off to the big war, the one book I took with me was a translation of the Ring operas, with Arthur Rackham’s irresistible and quite erotic illustrations. I wanted somehow to get it into my bloodstream
   Home again in ’45, I sought more Wagner any way I could get it. My 78 rpm shellac discs of the overture to Tannhaüser, of Melchoir and Traubel singing the third act love duet from Tristan, the first act of Walküre, the Met Saturday live broadcasts, and a dear older tenor friend and his musical family around whose piano, with open scores of the operas, we actually tried to sing the stuff. 
   Then in college I discovered maybe the greatest Wagnerite of them all, Bernard Shaw, and his influential book-essay, A Perfect Wagnerite, a way of hearing and thinking about the operas as great political-social, as well as musical, dramatic testaments.
   In 1976, came the Marxist, Bayreuth/Chereau Ring on TV. It had to be the greatest of them all, set, as it was, in the industrial/capitalist nineteenth century. Here is where I first heard James Morris sing the god Wotan. There is nothing under the sun to match his farewell to his daughter Brünhilde  at the end of Walküre.
    Then imagine what it was to be in the  Metropolitan Opera house in Lincoln Center for the entire Ring  cycle on as many nights. And James Morris as Wotan again on all four of them! When he finished his Farewell, and Loge set the mountain aflame around the guilty and sleeping Brünhilde, the audience like to tore the place apart.
   When I was to retire from teaching, the Dean hauled me in to say that in my last semester, I ought to teach something new, a seminar, the idea for which might be something wild in my dreams of life and death, art and…. all the rest of it.
   And so I thought about how ideas could be performed on stage. I thought first of the ideas in Wagner’s Ring. What were they and how might they work on stage? Immediately, then, Bernard Shaw’s Man and Superman leapt to mind with its great third act dream scene, Don Juan in Hell. And that meant moving forward, and at last, to that masterpiece of the master of all masters, Mozart, and his Don Giovanni.
   Fifteen kids and I studied, read, and listened to these immense works for those sixteen weeks. I recall how delicious it was. I wonder now if I was really up to it….
   So now, dear friends, we must note that there have of late been  complete Ring cycles all over the place. Every city of any count must now produce this revolutionary work. To top it off, we now have had it in a HD live transmission from the Met in our local movie houses. Not to mention a new production of Wagner’s final work, Parsifal, of which I hope I am worthy.
   And, in these late days, I’m reading what many think is the greatest of all biographies, Ernest Newman’s  gigantic Life of Wagner, in four volumes. In this, my old age, I have come to see Wagner the man in a different light from that of the journalist’s obsession with scandal that I had bought into so easily and for so long. For the gossips, Wagner was always morally reckless, prodigal, luxurious, covetous, faithless, dunning everyone for cash and a constitutional dead-beat in return.
  There is much truth in this indictment; but in it all, Wagner was the very model of the new artist, the real artist as the nineteenth century invented him. This new artist-exemplary, was granted to be radically different from the rest of us-- of a higher order and therefore entitled by the sublimity of his calling to moral privilege. (This idea of the artist is not entirely disappeared.)
    Wagner was what he thought he had to be in order to do what he had to do, which was always against the most impossible odds ever to oppose anyone who ever set out to re-imagine a civilization. In this respect Wagner remains Number One in the history of art.
   But all this pales  faced with the anti-Semitism that developed steadily throughout his career. It seriously compromises his ideology of heilige deutsche Kunst-- holy German art-- as he so exalted it in his comic masterwork, Die Meistersinger.
    For all these reasons, it was difficult to be of his circle. Few fully understood what he was up to, even those, like Franz Liszt, who championed his operas, never quite got it. Still, and only by dint of the most desperate effort, he got his work done. Even though his vision of the theatre-- a music drama on stage-- failed to restore German life and art to its ancient glory, purity, and preeminence  among the nations. But he reinvented us who love the opera. He gave us a glorious new sound of music to live in and new meanings to ancient story. He taught us how to be really serious about life and art-- and how thrilling that could be!
   He was worthy of his hire.
   I am grateful beyond measure that I found Wagner in my nonage, but regret that I was for so long in error about the man. He may have been terribly failed in his vain heroics; yet for singers and orchestras on stage-- and kids like me-- he was a World Hero.
 




Saturday, January 25, 2014

The Golden Ones




   I’m going to change. I’m going to reform it altogether.
Why? Because the other Sunday night I watched the Golden Globe awards and saw…

Monday, January 6, 2014

Simple, about Angling for a Change-- and for the New Year

 
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                           Images of Our Flies

   You know what?  Everybody says,”You know what?” these days. I’ll try not to do it again, but you know what, those of us who have loved, studied, collected, and have used artificial fishing flies are today spoiled to death with images of them.
   There is a file here, close at my hand, labeled “Fly Plates”. It is my collection, over seventy years, of colored images of trout and salmon flies. The color photography of flies used to be, by present standards, rather coarse and disappointing. But these early images, rare as they were, were all that we had and we treasured them.

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Our Own Well

 
  
                                 

                                Water is Earth’s Genius
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   It’s astonishing! We own a well! My wife and I. A well of water!
   We had it dug-- or rather drilled-- up on the side of Sugarloaf Mountain. Precisely four hundred and one feet, straight down. That’s a football field with the behind the goal lines thrown in. Down through all sorts of granite, hard and soft, until the drill head reached an intrusion of white quartz, fractured so that it could carry water. Our water, in triumph!
    “Carry” water, I so carelessly say. Where was the water going? Where had it been-- at that considerable depth? Had it been there always, down in the bowels of Sugarloaf? Is it primordial? Is it ancient?
   But then all water is primordial, is it not? Has not all water been here--or there-- from the Beginning, used, abused, and reused? There is no new water, is there? On this exquisite, watery blue planet.
   Exquisite even when our water, like Hamlet’s king, goes “a progress through the guts of a beggar”. Or, when at home, the heavens load up and  water turns on us with a destroying flood -- in some strange sort or vengeance for I know not what…. Even then.
    I am not a hydrologist and so am free to think these things or whatever else comes up out of the well of my mind about water-- or the creatures who live on it.
   Years ago, visiting Mesa Verde, I saw way back, at the base of the cavern, right at the spot where the dome reached the floor, a seep of water, hardly noticeable to one who in the mountains has seen many such seeps and springs. But this tiny drip, behind the ruin of an ancient Anasazi stone house, was, I was to learn, adequate for the needs of a family. Enough water to drink, enough for cooking, maybe enough for a bit of washing…. It doesn’t take a whole lot, I was suddenly to realize. Sacred water, essential water, beautiful water. Just enough, flowing, dripping, cold and clear, from the stone immemorial. Water, the best companion of our lives.
   We now get our bit of it from our well at Sugarloaf, out of the great aquifer of the planet. I keep wondering if it has always been there? Did we tap into it for the first time? The water is cold, startlingly clear, pure and without stain. The poet W.B. Yeats wrote, over there in watery Ireland, that water is the soul generated. If suddenly the soul, whatever it is or is not, were to turn to substance, it would be water. Water of which we are mostly made and keeps us going, and reconciled to our days and nights.
   And now we own a well of it! “Own?” Perhaps I can own the well, but can I own the water it delivers? I think I borrow the water only for a time and then send it on to be used, abused, and used all over again, somewhere….
   The wondrous thing about water is that it can be purified. It can and has been freshened and used over and over and over, polluted, despoiled, dried up, you name it, and purified yet again. And still it cannot, in its nature, be destroyed. Its purification suggests the purification of the soul. With it we are anointed and blessed.  The evaporation over the vastnesses of the oceans, restores water to its primordial purity. Over and over and over-- until it ends up getting pumped out of that deep and secret bed of quartz at the base of Sugarloaf Mountain and into our very cabin.
    To think of it is to want to drink it. It tastes like… like what? Maybe it tastes like the word, “clarity”. It tastes clear of everything but itself with nothing in it but a wee bit of iron, or so the tests show. It supports good coffee, and a few drops illuminate good whiskey. It’s all-round water, and it thrills me.
   Cost? That first taste of the water was hideously expensive, thousands of dollars. But now that the well is paid for, the water seems to flow for free. It’s mine! Or is it? How can anyone own the necessities of the good earth? Who can properly be said to own them? It feels more like borrowing or renting to me.
   Still, I am glad to “own” this well. I dote on the mystery of it. So much that I cannot see, but only dream of. What can it be like down there where  light has never shone, nor eye seen? Can the quartz be white down there in that absolute  darkness? I feel in some crazy way that the water that flows up those four hundred and one feet to me is indeed the generation of the soul. To me and a trout. Nothing enjoys good, cold, clean water more than a trout. And I have sought the trout in such waters all over the place all over a life-time-- and so am qualified to speak in this way of water, fish, and the angler.
   I post this on Thanksgiving day of 2013 when I am profoundly grateful for our well,

Sunday, November 17, 2013

A New School


    Licensed by age and experience, I have prospected the trout fishing of these Colorado Rocky Mountains and have discovered lodes of high grade angling along the Front Range of Colorado. I feel confident in the claim that the Front Range-- with those who have advanced its angling literature, practice, and gear-- constitutes  an integral and distinguished sphere of angling of national import.